Monday, October 29, 2012

The Great Cereal Debate

Years ago (ok like, 3) when I first started trying to lose weight I had a huge turning point one night. Otherwise known as a meltdown of epic proportions that would put my 2 toddlers and preschooler to shame. I think I was maybe 1 week in to my weight loss journey, it was about 10pm, dinner was long over, and I was still hungry. All I could think about was cereal, a big bowl full of corn flakes and milk.


I remember wanting it so badly that I was grumpy and depressed, trying to justify to my Husband why I should eat it. I talked the subject to death for over an hour, then came the meltdown. I was literally in the floor, crying like my 3 year old, because I wanted something to eat and knew I shouldn't have it.

"It's just a bowl of cereal"

"Milk is good for me"

"I don't go to bed until 2am anyways"

"I will workout longer tonight"

Those are all valid points that I remember making to myself. What I wasn't saying though was more important.

"Am I really hungry?"

"Why do I want to eat?"

"Am I thirsty?"

"Why do I want cereal?"

"Am I just bored?"

I wasn't thinking about those things, I was just thinking about how I really wanted something else to eat, even though I had already eaten a more than adequate dinner. I was however, in tears, because I knew that if I could say no to that, I could say no to anything and maybe I would be able to succeed in weight loss this time. It was only a bowl of cereal, but it was a lot more to me, it was a symbol of all my hopes and dreams for my future body.

I chose an apple, and a bottle of water, and I worked out. Then i went to bed, happy, that I had said no and would survive to see another day of weight loss.

I still have those days. Unfortunately I let them win out sometimes lately, because I have gotten comfortable where I am. I'm trying to say no more often, because I am so close to winning this race. Today i'm trying to say no over some yummy leftovers from dinner last night. I had completely forgotten about them, until I opened up the fridge to make my munchkins some lunch, and there they were, just staring me in the face, begging me to eat them for lunch. I have lunch planned already, yet now those leftovers are haunting me, and i'm having another inner battle, just like that night with the cereal. I even went so far as to lay my leftovers out on the counter, getting ready for me to eat.

I was strong enough to say no that night, with the cereal. I'm strong enough to say no today.

What can you say no to today?

Friday, October 19, 2012

It's Fall Already?

We moved near the end of August. Moving is tough. It's been hard on the kids, adjusting to the new place, it's been tough on the husband, farther commute to work, and it's been tough on me, mostly on my waistline. My weight has been yo-yoing all summer within a 10lb range, nothing too drastic in the gain department but nothing fantastic in the loss department either. When we moved, i think i just kind of gave up for a while, i was beginning to wonder if i would ever get my motivation back.

It seems to have finally found me again. 2 full months later. Better late than never right? I've been working out with Turbo Fire videos this week and wow have they been kicking my butt. I've also kicked all sweet food and soda out of our house and started having much healthier lunches. My results are down over 3.5lbs this week. I'm pretty happy about that! My goal is to lose 7 more over the next 3 weeks. I definitely have my work cut out for me. Here's to hoping that next week, the yo-yoing cycle doesn't continue, and instead the scales moves in my favor again.